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Shakespeare Company Paris Book storeDitching my bags at a hostel rubbed with grafitti and grime, I had no maps or guidebooks, just the name of the oldest district in Paris, Montmatre, scribbled in my guidebook. It used to be the playground of Hemingway, Dali, absynthe and cabarets. It sounded perfect, I took the Metro straight there.

As I stepped out of the carriage, the streets were still in full swing, the bright white basilica Sacre-Couer more magnificently curved and lascivious than any church should dare. Darting away from shady men asking if I’d like to ‘boom boom’, I climbed the steps to the Sacre-Couer. It looked out across the whole of Paris and the Eiffel Tower. I sat with dozens of exchange students and couples, they cheered as an Arab busker belted out Springsteen and Dylan hits. As the sun fell over the lilac rooftops and cigarette butt chimneys of Paris I drank beer with a French man with bad teeth who sat in the cold beside me.

I bade au revoir and wandered into the night hungry. Pavement bistros were full of men and women tapping cigarettes and debating with red lips, and everything looked as beautiful as I imagined, but I felt lost amongst the hopeless romance of it all. The idea of dining alone amongst people laughing and dining a deux was more lonely than I could bear.

Montmatre ParisInstead I walked the little streets of Montmatre until my feet turned blue. Turning onto the main avenue of sex shops and sad characters hanging under red lights by the Moulin Rouge, I couldn’t stop remembering my vow to never to visit Paris until I had found ‘the one’, the love of my life. Here I was, alone, in Paris, and ridiculous as it was, I couldn’t help but feel sorry for myself.

The next day I climbed the Eiffel Tower in the rain, walked along magnificent streets that smelled of chestnut blossom and April showers, and finally went back to the cavernous hostel, damp, tired and alone.

A big group joked on the hostel’s veranda overlooking the canal. They smoked and laughed in a way that only beautiful can. It was evening and I wanted to be there, with the hip kids, not here with the nervous-looking backpackers surrounded by crumpled maps and water bottles.

I made up my mind, bolted my shyness inside, then went outside and said hello, or more accurately, opened the glass door and exhaled, ‘I’m bored!’ They were friendly people from all over the world who had been working in the hostel for a month or a year or more. We joked about this and that, everything and nothing, and for once I forgot about my shyness.

macarons patisserie paris

A few of the guys asked me to dinner at theirs. With relief I said yes. We walked down a leafy street to their tired high-rise in the 18th arrondisment, all the while followed by a homeless man with no shoes, too mad or sad to say anything other than, ‘Bap bap bap bap’.

One of the guys in the group, a sweet twenty year-old, Boca from Sao Paulo, turned out to be a chef at a Michelin-starred restaurant. What a coup. He cooked us chicken with noodles and radishes, which we ate on the balcony with good wine.

Being alone doesn’t always last long, and at that moment I was glad that I was not with a boyfriend, trapped inside a bubble of meals for two and private hotel rooms; a place which precludes innocent, new friendships in foreign places. My new friends and I drank more wine and went out to the Bastille area, dancing in the dingy bars and the cobbled streets of Paris until 5am.

The next day, my old university friend David arrived for the weekend. We took old memories down leafy streets, creating new jokes all the while as we imagined spending millions on antiques and fancy watches down the moneyed streets of Marais.

Paris Bistro French onion soupWe went to the bookstore Shakespeare & Co, with its cherry blossoms and tourists who’d all seen Midnight in Paris, and traipsed round the sad little string of streets on the Rue Mouffart, enjoying Croque Madames and onion soup in warm little bistros as the wind howled grey outside.

On Sunday night I stayed with an old friend Pierre. Getting up early, I went back to that sweet bookstore Shakespeare & Co, and played their piano up the ramshackle stairs. It was beautifully quiet up there. Finally, alone in Paris I felt at home.

Shakespeare Company Paris bookstore Midnight in Paris

Why do I travel? Because sometimes, without even a penny in my pocket, I find myself eating a Michelin-starred meal in Paris. Because sometimes, even in a city I’ve seen in the movies a thousand times before, I find more beauty than I ever realised was out there. Because sometimes there’s a city that makes me believe in Man.

I mean come on, there’s nothing happening on Jupiter or Neptune, but from way out in space you can see these lights, the cafés, people drinking and singing. For all we know, Paris is the hottest spot in the universe. – Woody Allen, Midnight in Paris